An interesting conversation with a very, very close friend of mine that I wish to log onto my blog here, I will refrain from using his name and keep him anonymous.
Anonymous: You crawled out of the darkness, with little to no help. What the fuck. That is something I’ve yet to fully do, you came out of depression, like severe… depression.
Myself: Nobody can help you.
My biggest recommendation, is to find something that can save you, not someone… but something. An idea, or perhaps change in yourself, in essence almost kill your old self and recreate. Becoming heavily atheist… and truly abandoning god made me realize how irrelevant everything was. And that the universe wouldn’t change if I died, or if the entire fucking planet Earth… just blew up, would be about just as irrelevant. That the universe is not in harmony with human ambition, and that the fact that I’m even here right now, and my brain can make the neuron connections sporadically and in an unquantifiable level of complexity to talk to you, and to be able to do all the things I’m capable of, and to be able to explore the world in which I live in, was absolutely amazing to me.
And that there was no meaning to our life outside of human ambition, that we were just simply here because we could be. And that the meaning of life that could be asserted, was whatever those neurons could fire in pulses over succession of time to create a meaning.
It boiled back to something in particular, that right now is a special time… simply because I’m here to be able to say that it is a special time. It sounds facetious but, its very very true and quite moving or inspirational if you look at it with the right pair of glasses on.
You just have to figure out a way to get yourself to try on a new pair of glasses.
Anonymous: omg, you just blew my mind. and opened my eyes.